Well, here it goes...

It is so hard to decide where to start. I guess I should start by saying that I am FAT. I'm a fatty, and anyone that says otherwise is just being nice. It took me a while to accept the idea of being fat.

Here are the "slap in the face" moments that made me realize I would have to change:
1. My "fat" clothes started getting too small.
2. The purchase of my digital scale. I cried the day I got on and was forced to see that I was closer to 300 pounds than 200 pounds.
3. My last OB/GYN visit. I want to have kids, but I want to have a healthy pregnancy, and there is no way that can happen at my current weight. I could never put a helpless being into an environment beyond their control.

So, where do I go from here? On January 1st 2010, I changed my insurance after I discovered that bariatric surgery was covered under one of the other options offered by my employer. Prior to my decision, I did a lot of research on bariatric surgery, and always kept it in the back of my mind, should it ever be financially possible for me. Now that it is, I am running with it in full force! I don't have a surgery date set. I am still in preliminary reviews with the hospital and my insurance, but want to chronicle my journey as it happens. I will keep you updated through the highs and lows, and hope you will stick with me!